That pretty much means I could have gone to a D1 school. I could have gone to swim at Santa Clara. I feel rather down about my decision to go to Marymount and to swim D3. I feel constricted, held back and I have this idea that I cannot go out and explore on my own. Sure, there might be some issues with languages initially, but I'd adapt, it's what I do. Ironically, 20 years ago everyone looked to America as the place to go, now I'm looking to go back to Europe. Break the ties here and start fresh, macht neu. The thing I wish I could do is to go back to Europe. I personally do not care for the government here, possibly that is from my lack of the politics. The favored child of my parents, I feel as if I need to live up to everyone else's standards, as well as my own.
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